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(Friday, March 31, 2006-)
+5:05:00 PM]*
5:05:00 PM
# nice lyrics.-
[[Take me/Right here]]-
Everytime i see you i can see right through you. Knowing u could never change ur mind. I look into ur eyes for the last time, i have realised for the first time, while everyone is around i'll take a moment to let you know tat i'm down. i don't know if i'll ever know why or hear the sound of the angels cry, what u said to me late last night, i'll remember for the rest of my life. Every night when i closed my eyes, i see the ways tat you've touched my life, and i want you to know tat i'll always be right here. These are the days these are the moments that pass us by, we ask the questions but we never really find out why. Cause I need you more than ever, I need Your help to find where I’ve been going wrong so far. When You’re near me, I feel like I just found me In the traces of the boy from yesterday. But in a world that is so black and white I will take the steps to change my life and I won’t be coming back to here again. I need Your loving hand to guide me through the maze of all the things inside me then I’ll know that I’m alright. ((: hmm. today was kinda sad day. made my chinese teacher cried. she felt tat she was too hlpless to hlp me. i also duno wat to say. she was tryin to talk sense into me. but i jus kept quiet and listenend. she said if i tell her to not bother me den she would jus give up on me. she told me i was able to make it if i try. hmm.. i guess she cares. but i'm sorry. i'm alil lost myself. many probs with family lately. i will try to buck up. like you said if i still fail in the end i would have no regrets. cos i hav tried my best. (: other than this. the rest of the day i was moody i kept thinkin bout wat chinese teacher say. i also feel bad. but i cant do anything much. jus study hard. yupp. den i had friends there for me to cheer me up. and she accompanied me too. hahs. was kinda fun lols. anyways. i've forgotton all my probs. i'm gona dump all my negative thinkin all away. thank you everyone for being here for me. no worrys. i will forget all abt the bad stuffs in a while. heeehs. for now i'll jus smile yarhs. LOLOL. I LOVE HER SO MUCH!! i will always rmb today!!! ((=
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(Monday, March 27, 2006-)
+7:15:00 PM]*
7:15:00 PM
# GREAT DAY-
WOohoo. I had a great day today. nvr hab my day been this great. morning went to meet her. den we were quite early for sch so we went up to blk 618 and see the landscape hahas. Abt 7.00 we walked to sch. hmms. after sch it rained. me sean fadhil nasri sherman and larris played soccer at the basketball court under the rain. it was damn fun. we played it like freestyle lol. i scored the last goal with a nice pull back and shot it with my left leg hahas. nvr hab i felt so fun playing soccer. hmms. its been like more than 3 months since i touched the ball. hmm. my bro had problems today. dun be sad or depressed larhs. u can sort things oout derh. this you two hab to communicate no need be afraid to de jui cos she can understand marh. its not like its a stupid reason rite. hmm.s 4.30 i went to played soccer at the street soccer court i played and waited for her at the same time. we left street soccer court at abt 5.30. hmms. walked with siew lin, alicia, siew kwan and her. yupp. hmm.s after tat i sent her home. lol she insisted on walking me to atmiralty. we walked but after tat i walked her back home. hahas. i sweared to my ass and ur ass tat tis would be the last time yeah. haaahs. nvm larhs. i jus wanna spend more time wit you. hope u can understand rite. my dad won scold me larhs. dun worry. hugged her tightly undr her blk. (: dun talk abt that person anymore larhs. not worth thinkin lorhs. mom talked on the phone jus now, i tot she was talkin to me den i replied her. den heard her put down the phone. hahas. i laughed to myself. lols. wat an idiot i'm. heys. gona hab dinner now. post again tml. yupps. byebye~ NTH CAN SEPERATE US`
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(Sunday, March 26, 2006-)
+10:57:00 AM]*
10:57:00 AM
# I'm MISSING YOU BADLY-
YAWNS. woke up at 10. kinda tired and hungry. i slpt on an empty stomach. tot she would be online so i went online. but she wasnt. hmm.. i miss you real bad now. msged but couldn get you.. where are you?? i need you now. come on talk to me. last night we had a great talk over the phone. llols. made her paiseh. sure was fun. funny too. stuffs like tat arnt really embarassing rite.. the one i wanted to tell you was even more embarassing for me lols. well u didn tot it was. we need some training lols. sometimes we jus cant say some stuffs face to face. Bored now. i'm gona go hav my breakfast. hmm.. hope u would reply soon too. its gona rain here at boonlay. skys all grey. winds all chilly. it sure creates a mood. hahs. post again at night. yupps..
MISS MY DA YAN!
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(Saturday, March 25, 2006-)
+7:16:00 PM]*
7:16:00 PM
# hard days.-
Today was happy for us. i had gotten over that matter i guess.. i hope.. It isnt the write time to talk abt tis. todays a happy day. llols. i lazed on my bed since 9 till 11. hmm.. was msging with her. yupp it all seemed fine. i had potato chips for lunch. lols. she didn had lunch. lols. i couldn psycho her to have her lunch. shes kinda stubborn. lol. like me. heehs. i wonder whos more. was home whole day. using the com lazing around and eating. i hab been thinking abt saving money. cos i wrecked my phone again. vibrations gone now it cant even close properly cos the flips lost its spring. LOL. i didn dare to tell my dad cos its for some stupid reason that its sspoiled. i actually sat on it. lol. So i've gotta save my own money and buy a new phone. have alrdy devised a plan. hope it works. i wont be able to take cabs anymore until june 23. =D gonna save money until this special day. Gona try something new with the money. I jus finished vacuuming my room. now i'm cooling down. lols. u cant imagine how sweaty you would be. i'm so bored now. so decided to post. a girls thinkin is seriously complicated. i havent actually tot of it till this extent. This has became so bad. i wished i could clarify properly but wat shall i say? theres only 1 way to be sure. to hear it from the person herself. rather than thinking abt it. although we''re only 17 days old, we've alrdy talked and done stufs to the extent. yeahh. i only wish for all this to end quickly. i dun wan this to be another problem for us and it shouldn be a problem from the beginning. its just tat i think ur still unsure. I'll be here forever, forever i'll stay and i promised to love you, i'll love u always, you'll love me always. Always` ((=
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(Friday, March 24, 2006-)
+10:06:00 PM]*
10:06:00 PM
# Clearing the problems.-
Today was a really down day but turned out to be kinda fun too. Sort out most of the stuffs. understood each others feelings. felt better. i hope tat u hav cleared some stuffs in ur mind too. ur thinkin too much yupps. hahs. its alrite but dun over do it. i'm jus worried. i'm always here when u need me (= Today slacked in sch. i didn got caught for dying my hair lols. was really lucky cos today was the deadline. hmm.. During a period of time i was still guilt ridden over yesterday yupp. its nth. sorry for making u worry. i noe i made u feel bad too. After sch went to cwp to da pao long john den went to basement 3 to eat. lols. while eating we were so afraid that the guard might come down and check on us but we sat behind the cctv so it didn spotted us. lols. lucky us. but we got caught and chased away yesterday. guards were afraid we would leave and dun wanna clr up lols. he totally spoiled my mood. lols. i didn managed to finish my food and had to throw it away. Later i went home i was sooo darn hungry. now i'm kinda far alrdy lols. cos some ppl jus cant stop askin me to eat heeehs. but wat can i do.. jus listen to you lorhs. hahas. i wanna be 60kg or 65kg by june. lols. i cant seem to put on weight easily. I jus wanna be fat for once. now everythings gone down to my stomach. gota work out soon. or else i would have a big belly. lol tat would make me look damn farnny. hahas. erm.. gonna go slp now call u soon . bye.
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(Thursday, March 23, 2006-)
+9:03:00 PM]*
9:03:00 PM
# Sad, Guilty, Sians.-
I messed up totally. i fucked myself up and let her down. haish. wtf was i thinking. i feel damn sad and guilty i cant stop thinking abt how harsh i was towards her. i totally destroyed everything. I tot it was jus a talk. i didn noe it would mess me up and it made me really frustrated and feeling crappy. I didn spare a tot for you. i only focused on myself. i was being too selfish. from today onwards i will watch wat i say towards you. i'm not gonna repeat any mistakes anymore. this could turn real sour. i dun wan tat to happen. U are already good enuff. dun think tat ur not alright. Ur mine and always will be u need more time. I'm sorry for being selfish and giving u no room to breathe. i noe my mistake now. I hope i didn hurt ur feelings badly. No matter how much sorry i say i wouldn be able to make up for my mistake. =(
Wish i could turn back time. this time i shall watch my words and not saying things without thinking.
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(Sunday, March 19, 2006-)
+11:51:00 AM]*
11:51:00 AM
# bored.-
Its been a long long time since i blogged. Was kinda busy. i duno with wat. but i lost my password for quite awhile. lazy to retrieve it back. Days have been happy for me eversince ninemarchtwuthousandsix =) Although its something really happy to be happy about llols. its not tat all happy happy. things keep coming. they dun seem to go. u cant refer those as problems. neither their something bad. But they're stuffs u cant forget jus like tat. Problems with the heart. their the worst thing tat u could ever wanna ponder upon. Though i havent seen problems as bad as this. but i try to learn to comprehend. sometimes its really difficult. somethings u havent experienced it and u jus cant understand it. i may seem to be comforting u sometimes. but i duno wat the hell i'm doing. jus try to be with u stand by u always. i guess maybe this is wat i could only do. i hope to do more. just wanna see u happy.
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