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(Thursday, August 31, 2006-)
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happy teacher's day. sch today was darn boring.
but the ice cream was nice. thanks principal.
nice of you. today after sch she came my house.
she's so cute lur. and so paiseh hahas.
saw my mum and grandma and said hi.
abt 4.30 we left. accompanied her home and back.
we ate food from the night market at cwp.
walked t vista and bought drinks and her dessert.
and u left me missing u.. love ur huggs darling <3
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(Monday, August 28, 2006-)
+6:40:00 PM]*
6:40:00 PM
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well. this week onwards will go home early.
she planned it. prepare for n lvls ryte. ha.
now its jus chiong and chiong barh. i hoped. =x
today kinda tired. last nyte didn slp well.
i think i gotta cut down on all these.
bad for us bad for my brain too.
sorry for being frustrated in class today.
dunc noe why i had alot of anger inside me.
i've let it all out now. i'm fine.
i miss you geri! i wished the path was clear.
i hoped from now onwards we can solve probs.
i hope i can be the one stopin her from changin.
i stared at the sky today norhs. and asked myself.
if tis is really wat i wanted den why worry.
its not lyke everythings so bad tat she's gone.
all i wanted was her by my side. nth else norhs.
want her t stay the same tat good and strong girl.
the one i'd fallen in love deeply with.
den i told myself. if i really had made a diff.
den maybe she'd still listen t wat i say.
i missed us the happy us. the carefree us.
the nth t worry abt thinkin. the crazy in love feel.
missed ur lips. those kisses tat made me go high.
its been gone for so long. hhahs, wana feel again.
i love her so much. her hugs tat made me warm.
those feelin she always left me missin when shes gone...
i missed them so much. come back soon.
kit.yyanyan. <3
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(Saturday, August 26, 2006-)
+3:12:00 PM]*
3:12:00 PM
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sweat drips in my eyes
screams of lust we cry
tonight you are everything to me
you're everything...
you're everything to me no more
as I wake from this perfect dream
I'll escape from Eden's walls
can I not stay and live this lie?
go away and I'll think only of myself
and to think that you will not be scared or surprised if I'd severed all these ties
this is the end...
I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you
I feel so numb to see this bitter end of beautiful illusions...would this be the same?
broken pieces will not mend to save our past now...go away...
I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you
now we must let go
urgency overwhelms me as I must restrain my flood of tears
I refuse to be slave to your false beauty again
I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you
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(Thursday, August 24, 2006-)
+7:10:00 PM]*
7:10:00 PM
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lately i'm tired and all. cant slp much.
maybe think too much abt studies and games.
us too. yupps alot barhs. alot has happened.
we've gone through almost everything.
solved alot. feelin more relaxed and happy. (:
loved her so much. sorry abt jus now too.
i sweared and i promised lerhs. i'll change.
hab faith in me yarhs! hehs. ytd watch the breakup.
the show not bad. touching and funny. lols.
budden ending was unpredictable. yups.
went for remedial jus now was tired.
prelims result quite okay. so far failed 2.
mt and combine humans. today darn slpy.
the medicine keep makin me wana slp.
keeps getting stucked in my throat too. lols.
worried abt her studies. hope she works hard.
dunc easily demoralised and give up.
i'll put in everything for u and hlp you okay.
jus gotta listen t me barhs. i hoped. =X
I'm gonna miss her again... <3
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(Sunday, August 20, 2006-)
+1:44:00 AM]*
1:44:00 AM
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I had no regrets loving u geri. past is gone.
its a whole new chapter and a brand new me.
u made me smile u brought me laughter.
most importantly u loved me lyke i love you.
well i'm not asking much jus for u t stop.
because the one hurting most is you not me.
you noe it urself. i'm hurt cos ur hurt.
everyday i fear tis prob would surface.
nvr thought tat it did again. bury it soon.
be lyke how we were, happy and loving.
i dunc lyke tis. especially wat happened.
i still habben slp hab you? i'm really tired.
tired t explain t you and quarreling.
i'll only be patient with you and tell you.
my feelings are true. my consicence clear.
the lady i love is no other GERI LEE YIN YAN.
no one else. and its nvr ever gona change.
not unless u change tat. i love you babe.
i noe u wont slp well tonyte. anyhow think agn.
not good for ur brain. i understand ur feelins.
are u insecure? from all ur sayin it seems..
i assured u countless times. i'll always do.
dunc care how dunc care when dunc care why.
once in a while i'll still say something t u.
in this world problems only come if u mix them.
mix them with ur personal affairs which is us.
we're perfectly okay. i love u, u love me.
hey whats wrong anyways. lols. jus our luck.
i cried when i called ur cellphone. i cared.
i loved. i dunc wan u t sad. neither i wan sad.
things u said u promise nvr t say. but u did.
make forever an outstanding word lyke u promised.
everything u did for me i'm so happy. do u noe?
can u see? do u feel my happiness. i love u.
no loneliness anymore. cos ur here by my side.
u said u'll be here. as i can see it u are.
even though so near yet so far. we're still close.
dunc tell me i'll be happy. cos now its enuf.
dunc say ur not good. i always said u were.
understand wat i say and accept. i need u darlin.
stay with me. dunc be sad. dunc be jealous.
if ur insecure. i'll make u feel secure over time.
i'll make everyone see no one else comes close.
no one else comes close between u and me. i wont let!
i swear! neither will i break free from out bond.
its so strong alrdy. dunc break it. stay there.
its safe. i'll protect you from harm and fears.
tell me what are ur fears. tell me ur sorrows.
i'll understand them. i'll mend them. i take it away.
i mend ur heart back. make u happy and smiling again.
u noe i'll always stay with you no matter what.
i've always wanted t. no matter what u say. u noe derhs.
i'm not those who change my mind once i noe wat i want.
I WANT YOU GERI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'VE ALWAYS WANTED YOU. SINCE WHEN I WANA LEAVE YOU! (:
I'LL DIE SO REGRETFULLY IF I WERE T LET U SLIP AWAY.
I LOVE YOU. COS I NOE YOU'LL LOVE ME TOO.
I SWEAR BEFORE GOD. I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. ALWAYS.
I REALLY HOPE YOU'LL BE HAPPY WITH ME. ITS US-
NVR BEEN ANYONE ELSE BUT U U U U U U U U U .
I MISS YOU DARLING. MISS UR HUGS AND KISSES.
WEARING THE JACKET U WORE IN MY HOUSE THE OTHER DAY.
STILL FEEL UR WARMTH INSIDE. UR SMELL. UR LOVE.
U TOUCHED MY HEART COUNTLESS TIMES WITH WORDS.
THINGS U DID FOR ME U REALLY SACRIFICED. THANK YOU!
I REALLY APPRECIATE THINGS U DID. THANKS SO MUCH!
I NVR TOOK THINGS FOR GRANTED. ITS BAD. I NOE IT.
I TREASURE YOU SO MUCH I CHERISH I CARED ALOT ALOT!
I SO EASILY GAN JJIONG AND WORRIED ABT YOU.
IF U JUS GONE FOR A FEW MINS I'D WORRY LIKE KISIAO.
ALL THESE I'M SURE U NOE DERHS. I DO CARE ALOT.
ESPECIALLY FOR UR SAFETY. WHEN UR ALONE.
WE'RE ALRDY TGT. UR WEARING MY RING!!! HHAHS.
KEEP IT TAT WAY AND WEAR IT ALWAYS OKAY!
6 MONTHS SOON LERHS. I SO LOVE YOU DARLING!!!!
6 MONTHS MEANS HALF A YEAR! I'M BLESSED T HAB U!
I WAN WORK WITH U IN HOLIS. COOK MEE WITH YOU.
EAT WITH U. CUDDLE EACH OTHER AND GIVIN KISSES.
HUGGIN EACH OTHER SO TIGHT AND SPIN ROUND N ROUND.
BEING SO HAPPY ABT A BRAND NEW DAY AND SEEING YOU.
THE THINGS WE'VE DID. SO MUCH. SO FUN. TREASURED-
THE MOMENT I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU. I DIDN STOP.
ONLY WHEN I SAW THINGS DAT SADDENED ME.
SEE U LEAVING IN THE CAB. I LOST MY ONLY CHANCE.
T TELL YOU HOW I FEEL ABT YOU DURING CHALET.
SEE YOU WITH HIM PATCH BROKE ME APART.
YET I CARRIED ON. AFTER U LEFT I TOLD MYSELF.
SHES GONE ITS OVER. GIVE UP. SHE'LL NVR BE URS.
BUT YET. AFTER HOLIS UNTIL SCH REOPEN I STILL LOVED.
NOT NOEING IT. BUT SEE THINGS U DID WITH OTHERS.
I GOT JEALOUS. I CANT STOP LOOKIN AT UR BEAUTIFUL EYES.
CANT STOP NOT WANTIN T SIT WITH YOU. CONTROLLED!!
ALL THESE U DUNC NOE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
IF ONLY I COULD MAKE U UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.
DEN U WOULD STOP PUSHING ME AWAY LERHS...
I LOVE U DARLING GERI. UNDERSTNAD.
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(Saturday, August 19, 2006-)
+10:18:00 AM]*
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If asked why I love her I would say
It's the sway in her hips,
the thickness in her thighs.
It's the lust in her lips,
the love in her eyes.
It's the softness of her skin,
the silk in her hair.
It's the way that she walks;
it's the sweetness in her talk.
It's the way she loves me
that makes me love her each day.
That is what I would say.
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(Friday, August 18, 2006-)
+7:48:00 PM]*
7:48:00 PM
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jus got back. i'm tired. i miss her.
lately it jus sucks. fcuk everything.
fighting for love tats jus great.
wat t think and wat t say anymore.
i jus dunc noe eh. feel empty.
words dunc come out right. sigh.
someday i'll try t make u unds.
i dunc noe who u are. what u are.
how u treat me, and in wat way.
i only noe one thing.. u noe..
maybe i still haben understand you.
cos everthing seems t link up.
)=)=)=
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(Sunday, August 13, 2006-)
+12:08:00 PM]*
12:08:00 PM
# glad.-
hello hello! lols. jus finished breakfast cum lunch.
i miss her so much. lols. glad t see her study.
happy t noe tat u'll listen t wat i've said t you.
i noe its kinda tough. well. even i feel tat too.
but i'm still studyin hard yeah. i'll go study with u.
we've talked alot yesterday. abt now and nxt time.
hmms. cant hide my feelings and tell u tat i'm not sad.
maybe i'm jus worried. but lyke i said no matter wat.
i'll always stay by ur side. nvr leaving you.
i promise you! <3 no more broken promises. yupps.
trust me and stay by my side too. nvr wan u t leave.
i love u darling. i'm crazier abt u each day. hhas.
i hope'd forever isnt jus a word for u and me.
i'll always stay with u and protect u kaes.
i'm off t studies now! I MISS YOU SO... STAY...
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(Friday, August 11, 2006-)
+7:13:00 PM]*
7:13:00 PM
# my hands numb.-
hmms. jus got home. around 6 plus. came home jiu chat.
she's sad. even if u are i noe u'd stil lbe happy(=
kinda worried abt her too. because she hates being scolded.
either she'll run away or she'll cry cos of someone loved.
i understand kaes. so tell me whenever u need me.
anything at all i'll do for u derhs.
jus now came back whole left hand became numb now my arm too.
its sort of lyke stroke. lols. i cant control it.
its so heavy i can hardly lift it. imagine this kaes.
i'm carryin a car with my arm. tats how it feels. scared..
i can barely type a msg and type on the keyboard.
only my right hand and arm is fine. i wonder why.
well alrdy told my mum. later gonna tell dad.
he's once a stroke patient guess he'll noe something.
stroke has been running in my family line. so...
if i get stroke den.. too bad for me. but no matter wat.
i wont let anything happen t me. cos she needs me. ha!
whose gonna protect you if i'm not around?
even on the verge of erhems* i'll still hang on.
you'll always be the first person t noe everything.
jus now i also told u first. so dunc worry kaes.
tday after sch nth much. walked her home.
den went swimming with her and ah boi.
i didn swim jus sat there. watched slpt. slacked.
was really boring larhs!!! lols. and no time...
she gotta go home early den. for dinner.
5.22 i went home. hugged and kisses. [:
missed her larhs. tis week like no see her often.
only jus awhile. in sch also nvr talk t her.
felt lyke not much time tgt. well study hard kaes!
i'll study with u norhs. buck up! work hard!
i wan go up with u nxt year! dunc slack lerhs.
no time no time~~!! ha.. my back aches are back again.
my fractured bone still haven okay. been 2 weeks.
aiyo. wth is wrong with me so many symtoms.
am i dying? hahaha. choy! touch wood touch wood!!!
hao derhs end here.
I LOVE YOU YAN!
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+7:10:00 PM]*
7:10:00 PM
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Despite myself
I make the most of this long sleepless night
To jot down these lines
We say that the heart has its reasons,
That reason doesn't always understand
I hope mine isn't lost
I will have needed time to understand
To write to help me come out of this mist
To know how to find the right words
Even though I'm aware that you won't read them
But I know you are here !
I feel your gaze turn on me,
But what does it matter ?
I have to empty my mind, make my heart cry
What could I have done to help you ?
I would have covered you with my skin
If I had been able to remove it...
Just to warm up you
In your shaking arms, I would have rolled off my strength
So that you might defend yourself
Pierced by pain
Your body would have passed through mine
And we would have shared it
But now, I have to relearn to live... Whithout you
Afflicted by much sorrow
I try to cross life...
To have been able to write all these thoughts
Which obsess and torment me,
Relieves my conscience
I only have to forget everything,
Start anew
And give my life a new meaning...
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(Thursday, August 10, 2006-)
+7:15:00 PM]*
7:15:00 PM
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the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, August 08, 2006-)
+11:23:00 PM]*
11:23:00 PM
# straylight run-
The Perfect Ending.
Taken in context
It's not a bad thing
But when you start to pick it apart
It gets so depressing
It's that sort of thing
That makes you think too much
It's that sort of thing
That makes you lose your objectivity
So, if you made it
Just be glad that you did and stay there
If you ever feel loved or needed
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones
And if it's over
Just remember what I told you
It was bound to happen
So, just keep moving on
There's no perfect endings
You peel back the layers
And get down to the inside
But sometimes you lose sight
Of what it was you were trying to find
And it's that sort of thing
That makes you think too much
It's that sort of thing
That makes you lose your objectivity
So, if you made it
Just be glad that you did and stay there
If you ever feel loved or needed
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones
And if it's over
Just remember what I told you
It was bound to happen
So, just keep moving on
There's no perfect endings
No perfect endings
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(Sunday, August 06, 2006-)
+12:38:00 PM]*
12:38:00 PM
# missing her.-
its been long since i blogged huhs. (= i'm back again.
really tired and lazy past few days. no time t blog.
tuition and more tuition coming up. this month is hell.
faster end. i wana relax i dunc wan tuition alrdy!!
everytime need rush home. but of cos must study.
i'm studyin really hard alrdy larhs. i wan go sec 5!!
she's starting t study too. i wan her go up with me.
keep pushin her lorhs. sometimes only hhahs. cant often.
she'll find it irritating. heehs. will you be here?
or will i be alone? you nvr noe tomorrow.
if i fall down will you hlp me carry on? <3
nth much t blog. tuition on monday thurs sat weds.
fcuk larhs. all tuition on chemistry. pengz...
lols. anyways. must work hard. (= cant stop.
alrites i'm going t go study now. jiayou darling!
after tis year most things will be easy for us.
u noe wat i mean yarhs, i love you. ((=
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