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(Sunday, April 09, 2006-)
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hmms. forgot to blog so here it goes.. i'm havin a fever now. its getting a lil bit better. but i'm still giddy. i woke up at 9 plus this morning and went onlin eto chat with her. after chattin awhile she went offline and i went to bath. den we msged. when she went out to go to her grandparents place. she told me stufffs she seen and bought a hello kitty necklace. hahas. the shirt we nxt month buy yarhs. now save money first. hmms. den whole day i jus slacked and play ps2. wackin ppl up and having gang brawls. sho fun. sho bloody. hmms den heard from her tat she cried badly after quarrelin with her parents. i realy duno wats the prob. tryin to get u to tell me budden i think its jus not the rite time. u need space tat i noe. but i jus cant leave u alone like tat. u really hab alot of probs. jus hope you would talk abt it so tat we can thrash things out and make ur load a little lighter. maybe the answers doesn only lie with you we can also tell you and assure you. wats on ur mind darling? ur always telling me how strong you are. but being with u for one month i've seen ur limit and heard abt it. u noe i won jus believe tat ur always fine. even if you are tats jus only for a moment. after tat when ur alone things jus keep hitting u straight in the head. den u start thinkin again. tears flowin again. wat can i do? wat can we do to hlp you. how can i not worry. if its so easy not to worry abt things life wouldn be so complicated and tough. i cant realy slp rite now. i'm still waiting for ur reply. at least a word from you saying tat ur fine is relieving enough. hurts me to see u like this. and it affects all of us as a whole we're tgt we're a grp. things dun always go our way. the outcomes arnt usually nice when its of certain stuff. u jus gotta except some of it and forget some of it. talk abt it so we can hlp you better understand. dun keep it to urself and always cryin to urself. everyones here for you. probs will nvr go away. after u're done with now more probs come later. wat can we do abt them? are u gona always do the same thing and tell me not to worry time and time again. i really wanna hlp. but i'm like so useless and confused. everythings too complicated. maybe i'm abit slow but i can very much understand how you feel. i jus wan you to be happy some day free from all worries and smile. even for 1 day i'm happy for you. probs come and go. its nvr ending. i love you too much, i jus cant stop caring for u nor bother abt u. i have to. i'll always be here to listen to you. always be waiting to hear from u if theres any probs or somethings ur unsure of. u must be sound aslp? hmms. if u cant slp pls reply my msg okays. cos i'm still waiting. hahas. u can be strong to others. but u are always strong on the outside and soft on the inside to me. i'll be here for you always. dun forget this ((: slp tight my laopo. i will hold on to you till the very end. i wont let u break apartt. i promise. CROSS FINGERS~
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June 2005