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(Saturday, May 20, 2006-)
+6:13:00 PM]*

KKIT<3YANN .
6:13:00 PM

# missing you..-

i miss you. lols. the feeling of missing someone yet cant get t see the person totally sux. hhahs. wished it was monday tml. anyways theres nth wrong. i was jus sayin some stuffs.

theres nth wrong with me nor us. so relax kaes. nth to be worried abt hahaha. (:

i'm chilling at home. wonder wat ur doing huhs. msged u but no reply. hhahs.

can i call you tonite? eh anyways. its really bored noe.. missing u is not fun at all.

i want to see you soon!! (:

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KKIT<3YANN .
3:06:00 PM

# things has been so hectic.-

havent been blogging past few days. too much to say i gues. things jus kept happening. where should i even start? lols.. its been so confusing and everythings jus so down.. i sure hopes everything was really find. have been thinkin alot lately. the things i've said to you and how would u be feeling still. i dunc think its easy t jus take things lightly. everyday i still feel sad whenever i see you. i'm still guilty concious. i'm not sure whether i've alrdy put things back ni place again. has it been stable eversince the first day or has it been rocking all the whilee?? everything we did together and all the happy times, sad times. has it hlped strengthen this. lols. i jus feel everything tat happens. it makes a big impact and feelings jus become strange all of a sudden. i dunc mean love. i feel like theres a distance alrdy. everytime we quarrel things i feel tat we're strained. are we? i'm worried. scared. lols. i noe she doesnt like me this way. cos we needa trust rite. i trust alot. trust isnt everything. we've got a brain. its meant for thinkin. it runs wild. unless everything in this world was meant t be positive. many things would hab been prevented. listened to songs whole day. it sure creates a mood. whenever i listen to nature's law i think abt everything tats happened. the part where it say i'll live with never knowing if knowings gona change. somethings i've said might hab changed her thinkin about everything. all i can do is to keep assuring. showing. the rest is up t her t believe and t change her thinkin. i dunc wana think anymore lerhs. now everything i jus do it to show u. words do not hlp much for you anymore. i think being devoted has its bad points too if u noe wat i mean. doesnt mean devoted is good. or makes the guy good. problems start coming up later even if things hab moved on. sometimes i wished time could move alil faster?

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(Monday, May 15, 2006-)
+11:13:00 PM]*

KKIT<3YANN .
11:13:00 PM

# i've hurt her too much-

i'm sorry for hurtin u yet again. my past has stoned my heart. i've forgotton abt the past tat i'm very sure of. this is nvr abt the past. its abt how my past has affected me. its alrdy changed me. i become more and more careful with things i do. i find it hard t open up as in become like last time. i hab much t worry. after all that we've been through together i noe we'll sort this out. i've put in everything jus for this. i love. i care. everything tat i do. everything tat i think of. i think abt u and me. i refer everything t us. i noe its time t tell u those stuffs because i dunc feel it from u. i love u alot. i can do anything for you. u noe tat. but i wana hab the feeling tat i'm being cared for and loved. but i dunc feel it most of the time. i always think do u really love me for wat i'm? do u still hab doubts abt me? are there really trust in us. the things we said over and over in msg and conversations. things we've nvr told each other. those are just words. i duno if i'd done enuf for u. not sure if u could feel my love for u. my love for u is strong. i dunc really wish we'd jus drift because of this. i've done alot. insearch of true love. hoping t really find it. well. i guess everyone's searchin for it too lurhs. i hope i can feel it. when u gib me my own space. i really think its not neccesary, cos i dunc like t be left alone. if you asked me i would tell u everything. tats how i'm. leaving me alone isnt hlpin me in anyway. sometimes i'm jus too afraid of tellin u stuff dat might make a huge impact on this relationship. minor problems i would still tell you. but today i'm tellin u this cos i've alrdy jumped t too much conclusions. sometimes i feel it sometimes i dunc. i'm still insecure most of the time. i wana feel again. i dunc wana be lost. i dunc wana be dragging u along and keep u in the dark. the problem now isnt i dunc love u. all along from the start i do. u noe tat. although we've been through many obstacles and cleared them. my love for u has alrdy became stronger each time things happen. i still duno how much u love me. =x i'm tryin my best t open up. am i the problem of everything? i seem t hurt u everytime. can i really be the person tat starts and ends with you? do u still love me the same after i told u all those jus now? will u still trust me the same? can we continue doing the things we always do? i dunc wana always affect you like this. i noe it hurts u alot. its okay if u felt tat i bastard u. i noe very well i didn. cos i did not love anyone else neither hab my love for you changed in anyway. it jus became stronger. am i really important to you like ur important t me? darling, this is the time i need u the most. i feel u should noe all these tats why i told u how i felt and maybe u could tell me things. assure me. i need u t clr my thoughts. 2 months, we've come so far. we've been through so much alrdy. its like being tgt for a year. i hope u wont blame me but stay by my side and make me realise my mistakes. pls hlp me get out of this tgt. i need ur caring heart and loving hands to pull me out of this. i've told tat if u fall i'd fall too. u can blame me for anything. i wont mind. u noe it. i'm not like my past. i've changed for the better. for u. hope u could understand. blame me but stay with me wil lyou? guide me and stand by me can you? i cant get t slp. i wished u were right beside me now. i want t tell u everything in my heart. tell u how i feel. all my thoughts. hugg u. sorry for being such a jerk and bastard. i guess i'm not tat good after all. my thinkings jus selfish. i'm sorry. i'll spend tonight thinkin everything through. hope i can put it back t place like how it was. i dunc wan t change this. dunc wan t drift away from u. ur my everything. scold me blame me. i dunc mind. be angry with me if it could hlp make u feel better. talk t me. cos i need t talk to you too. pls tell me nths changed. its my problem. my mistakes. i will do something abt it. but for now. its u tat i'm worried abt. i care abt u and love u alot alot alot. i duno why i bastard u and how i bastard u. explain t me will you? i wont get angry. i jus wana noe more. i'd feel better and comfortable noeing things. i wont leave you for stupid reasons. we're alrdy moving on. its a matter of time when we dunc even hab t worry abt each other leaving anymore. we've became strong. i like it lik this. its all my fault. i'm sorry. i noe i shouldn be this way. when u asked me the other time whether u cared enuff or love me enuff i wanted t tell u this alrdy. but i didn as i thought abt it and replied sayin that theres no limit for loving and caring enuff for a person. its nvr enuff. to love and to care for someone is nvr ever enuff. tats why i keep doing it. i continue doing it every single day. cos i noe i cant stop. i'm in too deep. i dunc wana pull out of this. eversince being with u, u let me understand how it is t be calm and not losing patience. u let me open myself and let another side of me out. the other side tat i couldn become all these years. and u've changed me. i need you. be my girl for always. i cant stop loving you. everything tat happened tonight is a big big mess. i'll tell you everything tml. i wont leave you! cos i dunc want to! pls get this straight cos theres one important person i cant lose. and that person is u. pls forgive me if u can. if not hear me out. to what i hab t say t you. i can only apologise now. but i dunc expecct forgiveness. i've nvr expected anything from u. maybe tats why i felt it tat way? i was selfish okay. i'm sorry. i wont walk away unless you go away. you'll always remain my one and only laopo. gona keep u here beside me for the rest of my life. i promise you. CROSS MY HEART* SLIT MY THROAT.

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(Sunday, May 14, 2006-)
+9:37:00 PM]*

KKIT<3YANN .
9:37:00 PM

# sick-

sick.. spent my whole day playin com and watchin tv. it hlped alil. but i'm still so giddy and tired. no str t stand properly. hope i get better tml lols. hmms. gona go bath soon. waiting for her t call me. (: we're gona go watch movie when huhs? i think i heard u said it over the phone . but i didn quite hear it properly. wasnt paying attention. i was too tired to think. hhahs. sorry. umms. hear from u soon alrite. good night everyone! LOVE HER CONTAGIOUS KISS. hhahs. take care laopo. miss you. <3 darling get well soon also okays? not only me huhs. heehs. Xp

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KKIT<3YANN .
1:01:00 PM

# happy day out. ((:-

back again t post. lets talk abt yesterday. umms. watching tv at home. having diarrhoea. faster pia medicine so can go with her to bugis. hhahs. met her 2pm at bugis. waited outside guardian. umms. after tat we went t walk around paragon. walk afew rounds. duno where t go. cos quite sian lerh. den she suggested go tp walkwalk also. hhahs. i bought the shoe tat she wanted for her. hhahs. she was so funny lurh. dunc wan me t go in with her into the shop. she paiseh? hhahs. den i waited outside until she tried on the shoe den i went in t pay. (: happy t see her happy. hhahs. den at abt 5.30pm we took bus back t cwp. halfway through had diarrhoea again. lol. den when reached cwp i chiong into the toilet. the darn toilet bowl kep flushing non stop. make me so du lan lols. after tat went out as she was waiting quite long. sorry for causing you t be late t meet ur marmie. den i accompanied her t her gugu blk? uhh. den parted with her there. muaccks* umms. now i'm having flu. lols. think i contracted it frm her also lerh. having fever also. i hope it goes away asap. i hate falling sick expecially fever. but dunc worry abt me alrites laopo. hhahs. i'm fine. you gotta take care of urself too. cos i'm not always there. nag u also wont listen haha. rmb t take ur medicine. umms. last night talked t her on the phone too. sweet talks. hhahs. she was half aslp. can tell from her voice. totally no strength lerh. lol. on the way there alrdy she fell aslp on my shoulders. sorry if its too hard. :/ i'll try t eat more uh. talk t her abt future and made promises t each other. (: i'm very happy. i hope she is too. i love u deeply. stay strong together okay. i miss u. chatted more until 3.30am. den went t slp. she was still watching mv. i was playing game at 12 plus. didn noe she was waiting for me den didn went t slp. hhahs. i'm sorry again to kept u waiting. hmms. i think tats abt it. oh ya . den when in the train going t tp we saw 2 girls with big boobs. lols. wth. den we discussed. lol. funny arhs. kept laughing. umms. this morning woke up. bored. sick. fever. soarthroat. flu. running nose. sucks. i'm gona go play game. sure will better after 1 game. lols. hope so. UNSEPERABLES`

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(Friday, May 12, 2006-)
+11:37:00 AM]*

KKIT<3YANN .
11:37:00 AM

# sians. frustrated.-

wahaha! yesterday was fun celebrating ds birthday. happy birthday arh bro. lols. met up with them at cwp control station. den board train t bugis. in the train talked. i was quiet.. sian.. sorry arhs.. sian over certain things uh. in the train she sent the birthday song t ds phone den sat as ring tone. and called him. throughout the journey was okay barh. still didn talk much.. den see her sian sian becos cant buy the shoe den i jiu go over and talk t her. i didn think abt the stupid issues. it just slipped my mind. (: why didn ask me for money huhs. aiyo. see u lidat. whole day i was calling danny. cos we were planning t surprise ds. den when left bugis and headed for marina we went up escalator and danny lighted the cake and ds was surprised. hhahs. cos he thought danny and guiping wasnt going. lols. great plan huhs. it worked out perfectly fine. den ate cake and take video. she smeared cake on my face lols.. den she was paiseh and kept running around. umms. after tat we all waited for bus t come. we waited so darn long. hmms finally reached the steamboat place. went and got a place to sit den we all keep takin food. ds and kc took live prawn and crabs. den me and danny went to wash the crab. lols. it was really fun arhs. den washed finish lerh went bac kto table got food to eat also. hhahs. no need do anything. jus eat. and remove the prawn shell. we ate until late at night abt 8 plus. drank beer. me, her, cia and ah boi took a cab home. reached woodlands at 9 plus. den it started to rain. we got drenched uh. but went to bought beer and drank again. she was seh after drinking. i wasnt feelin anything. i was still fine. lols. she talked nonsense llols. i explained to her certain things. but doubt so she remembered. but she teared.. cos i wat i said. for that one moment u made me wana cry too. u noe theres no more lar. we're jus frenes. u noe how i work. u noe everything inside out of me by now. trust me. btw happy birthday bro. u not so guai lan huh. lols. had alot of fun. i first time eat steamboat with friends. so shuang. different from eating with family. happy family lol! fcuk i'm tired of family!

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(Monday, May 08, 2006-)
+10:00:00 PM]*

KKIT<3YANN .
10:00:00 PM

# -

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on educationYou may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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(Thursday, May 04, 2006-)
+6:33:00 PM]*

KKIT<3YANN .
6:33:00 PM

# sians.-

Bored. studied abit. hmms. glad that she's studying.

DEAR YYAN`

you noe i cant be like everybody.

because i cant tell you what u wanna hear.

i don't noe if i can make it better.

But all i noe is tat i will be around.

when all your hopes has left you.

and your dreams and turning into nth more.

Dunc give up.

You noe ur not alone.

Just hold on.

I can see it in your eyes u are hurting.

Pain is part of learning who u really are.

All the truths can sometimes be deceiving.

When your whole world comes crashing down.

You noe i'll be here.

I'll be the one whose waiting anytime you fall.

Tell me everything you need.

Anything at all.

Ur all i want, Ur all i need.

Ur everything inside and outside of me.

You are my strength that keeps me walking.

You are the hope that keeps me trusting.

You are the light to my soul.

You are my purpose in life.

You lead me to a place where i find peace again.

I need you to be alright.

Dunc fall apart.

No matter what happens.

Nth is gonna change between the things we've been through.

All the words we said, and all the promises we made.

It all kept me alive. No matter good nor bad times.

I would still put on a smile for u.

Having u with me has been the happiest thing that happened.

The words we share the thoughts we hab. the things we do.

I'm so happy. i hope u are too.

I'm hanging on every word you say.

All i wanted was to be beside you.

I jus wanna be here. this is where i wanna be. Hold on.

I LOVE YOU. <3

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KKIT<3YANN .
5:54:00 PM

# lols.-

Haish, dunc wish t blog much today. NICE DAY PERHAPS (:

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(Wednesday, May 03, 2006-)
+11:27:00 PM]*

KKIT<3YANN .
11:27:00 PM

# sad of everything.-

second post of the day. called her up to talk. got to hear how she felt. wat she wanted. i guess she knew those things werent good. i'm tryin hard to understand you. i wish i could hlp. all i can do is all talk and no show. i'm kinda useless too narhs. some stead i'm huh. lols.. been tryin to change ur thinkin and hopefully save u from taking the wrong way out. running ish out of the options. you've been running away too much. its time u stop and pause to think. sayin all this doesnt hlp i noe. but i jus gotta do something to at least hlp u think clearer. i'm lost. i'm confused as to why u would think lidat. and its like ur thinkin totally changed in a few days.. i got worried when u told me u dunc feel like studyin anymore. i got scared when u told me most of ur friends dunc study. i became disappointed when u asked me not to bother about you. i became sad when u told me the things dat u think u would be happy doing when ur not studyin. now its all in my head and in my heart. i'm so messed up. i really dunc wish u t be lidat. u gotta overcome this. nth go smoothly only when u want it to. theres not much time for mid year. but theres still time for n lvls. u noe u can do it if u want. dunc keep telling me duno duno. everything also duno den i how sial. dunc escape narhs. ur strong dunc let things pull u down. especially dunc be like ur friend. sorry if i offended u in anyway. but are those really ur true friends who can hlp u in times like this. come on. i'm not sayin all these lookin for a quarrel. i wanna make u understand abit. at least all i could do now is talk some sense into you. dunc wish t see u give up narhs. really its not worth it. thhink about it narhs. pls. dunc think about fun and enjoy now narhs, u got a life ahead of you leh. you can make things happen if u put in effort and make it a point to do it. dunc keep sayin u duno. ur just running away and telling urself to give up. ur lying to urself. come on and thinkk tats not wat u really want. think deep in to ur brain. its not suppose to be like this. its pointless telling me tat ur find. cos i noe ur not. neither am i. i've been thinkin eversince last nite u msged me sayin tat u lied to me. i didn got angry. but i knew the prob was gonna come. the probs tat i fear would come and the probs tat i wrote in my phone diary. it has happened. i stared at my ceiling askin god why. i thought about the things u would think about. i guess i got it all rite. dunc say no one understands u narh. theres so many ppl here for you and wanting to hlp you. u gotta trust us and let us hlp. we're all taking the same exams narh. who doesnt study derhs. who doesnt want to work hard and get good results. everybody one. maybe some are taking things slower. and some really put their mind to it cos they noe wat they really want. hey all i want is us to stay tgt. dunc drift! stay focus narhs. do it together and be happy. you'll regret one day when u haven even tried and alrdy gave up. i read ur blog. i noe how u feel. last time i felt tat way. but with friends hlp its still alrite. the more u think lidat the more pressure ur putting on urself. i hear lerh damn sad. i duno how. i dun wan things to end up badly for us or for you. theres so many ppl here for u. so dunc give up. we wont give up on you so why are u giving up on urself. when i did the mother tongue exams i wanted to give up too. but everytime i turned and saw u. i told myself i cant jus take things for granted. at least i must do something to satisfy myself. even if i fail my chinese i still at least did the paper. cos i noe i've tried. and every glance i take at u gives me the motivation and confidence to go on. because i noe i cant jus give up. theres still ppl here for me. guiding me and hlpin me along. we're not alone. we jus need time. but for now we still gotta think of n lvls first. no matter wat happens me and u will remain the same. i dunc wanna drift from u therefore i work hard hoping tat u would too so we can go sec 5 tgt. den during sec 5 at least we can make a plan for ourselves. i noe i want you and need u the most now. dunc fall stay strong. cos if u fall i fall too. dunc hab t tell me to study my own and work hard on my own. eversince the day we got tgt i've alrdy told myself no matter wat happens i'll always stand by ur side. watchin u lifting u. i wont leave u behind. neither would i jus let u think about all of these thoughts. it hurts me and u. can anyone motivate this precious lil girl of mine.. cos i'm trying my really best but i cant seem t make any difference. i won regret loving the wrong person even if all these turn bad. once i set my mind to it i'm gona do it with my everything. i dunc wanna lose u neither do i wanna see things go so wrong until its beyond hope. i noe ur a great thinkin person, ur always so thoughtful and i'm not. pls if u still hab anything u havent said to me do tell me. we promised each other alrdy rmb.? rmb wat you are. think carefully what u really are inside u. i would b here. waiting and hopin u would tell me ur mind is clear and u understand everything. i hope it would be soon... the whole day today i've been thinkin dats why i was quiet. i'm sorry. i'm seriously not gona slp tonight. its hard u noe... after all that talk. the sadness inside me hasnt cleared. i'm getting more and more worried. dunc think about the bad. think about the good. wat would u get out of the good than the bad. good stuffs are always hard to come by u gotta fite for it! fite for it real hard really really hard. den u can achieve what you want. givin up ish easy anyone can do it. but with regrets nxt time when they understand. i've given up but u're here to back me up everytime. u said u wanted a better life. i'm working towards it. for you for us. <3

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KKIT<3YANN .
3:28:00 PM

# woohaa.-

Woosh. Wat a nice bad day today. lols. actually its jus some things making me think tats why i feel so down. cleared my doubts and i'm more fang xin now. hhah! eh.. today mother tongue exam. did paper one wrote question 4. uh. den after writing the formal letter wrote compo. compo i wrote about studies and future. ending i wrote nvr gona give up and jiayou!! yeahs jis you arhs! everyone taking the exams. jiayou! ((: hmms. paper 2 i bo chap lurhs. i felt tat paper 1 was easier. way more easy than paper 2. lols. paper two i skipped all my zhao ju. den everything all anyhow do. i did until i fell aslp lols. really dunc understand dao... mother tongue dunc blame me for giving up narhs. not born to be great in it i guess. cos my whole family doesnt speak good chinese anyway. lols. enough to communicate with ppl ish good lerh for me lurhs. hhahas. den after exams went cwp. she bought bbt. accompany kou shui eat at food court. alicia went off first cos gona meet with ppl. umms. chee bai didn came. he went home after exams. umms. went ish our nite out? lols. eh faster go get a contacts lurh. now jus wear specs first kaes. no one will say u nerd lurhs. i wear specs more nerd lorh pls. hhahs. i wear with you lurhs. LOL. ums. gona go study soon. good luck for everyone's exams. tata`

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(Tuesday, May 02, 2006-)
+4:38:00 PM]*

KKIT<3YANN .
4:38:00 PM

# lol. slack day-

hhAhas. today was a darn slack day for me norhs. really tired and slpy today. yesterday night i didn slp much norhs. 15mins? lols. wth. dunc noe why narhs. but jus like will think about what we talked about. the more i think the more sense it made. (: den i kept on questionning myself whether i hab really said everything to you or not. bhurd think here and there still i duno neh. i think still got things to say barhs. but not really important norhs. and i also dunc noe wat isit at the moment. when the think about it i will tell you norhs. hhahs. dunc worry narhs. yesterday say so much i will definitely remember wat u told me and how to react. ((: after recess saw her having a stomach ache den i felt helpless norhs. she seriously was in terrible pain. i cant hlp but jus look only. wanted to go down sick bay take medicine for her but fadhil say they dunc provide pills? jus medicine applied externally like ointment. den i also sians. so went over and talk to her. after sch accompany her to cwp and met up with a fren. lols. she was so gan jiong. cos we dunc really noe him narhs. after we left saw her in pain again. duno wat to do again. so quickly find something to talk about and try to divert her attention from the pain. hope it hlped u huhs. was so heart pain norh. hope u'll be fine soon yarhs. (: gona go study soon. lets work hard together. dunc lose faith narhs. i'm also lazy to study and afraid i would flopp everything. although i feel so afraid yet i dunc do anything. i dunc study i jus slack. cos i noe my purpose of study is to gain more knowledge not for exams. if u think tat study is jus for the sack of exams den u would stress urself up and wouldn hab the mood to study. u gotta learn to relax. but dunc be like me narhs. i'm taking things too lightly. maybe tats jus how i do things barh. i've nvr studied much even during primary. i noe wat i wan narhs. work hard work hard!!! hhahs. u and me want a better life nxt time rite! lets work hard now narhs. time is flying way too fast this year. we cant waste anymore time. start now and enjoy later!! CAN WE DO IT??? YES WE CAN!!!!! =D i miss you laopo. <3

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KKIT<3YANN .
12:27:00 AM

# hhah hab a nice day.-

hhah!! i cant get to slp! i miss my laopo so much. jus now we msged eh. i told u every single thing about how i feel. i think now u understand why i'm always emo lerh huh? lols. i noe trust is everything yarh. but thats kinda a different story. bud i've told u everything and you've cleared my doubts in mind. all i noe now ish tat not taking a step forward and always remainning this way is getting us to no where. yuupps. sorry to hab disappointed you, i promise in future got anything i sure tel you and ask u okay. (: this time wont wana hide anything lerhs. i've learnt my lesson. i noe u also will be worried for me cos i nvr tell u anything. no more nxt time kaes. we're both afraid of the same thing. the same probs. i wont jump to conclusions lerh. will ask clearly furs. yeah i was an ass to hab let my mind rran wild. i agree with tat lurhs. but at least i finally told u every single thing in my heart. i feel more at ease noww. the stone in my heart has slowly began to be removed. its kinda big. but still i've gotta take my first step to try and clear it up. (: you must be sound aslp now. its 12.32am hhahs. jus finished my game of dota. i'm still wide awake rite now. maybe tonite not gonna slp lerhs. anyways waking up at 4.45 so slp now also not enuf slp might as well dunc slp lols. i'll try to slp narhs. maybe until i can calm my heart dwn and put my mind at ease. hhahhs. i love u noes. not thinkin bout anything else norhs. only think abt us. i'm happy with u lerhs. i feel at ease when i'm with you. calm and relax. u also told me abt how u felt eh. i noe wat to do lerh norhs. hhahhs. i must always make the move tat i noe very well lerhs. i noe wat i should do and should not lerhs. hhahs. umms. lets talk abt today. uh i left my house at 1pm and went to cwp to meet her and wanshi. wanshi reached first. she was gona reach alrdy when i jus reachd. she went bishan to shop lols. den when she came out i could see the happy look on her face hhahs. happy for you. she could finally get wat she want huhs. good for u narhs. den we went cck long john to eat as cwp derhs was so small and full. hhahs. while eating we joked and crapped with wanshi. umms. she is kinda farnny person huhs. first impression was she is very easy going type norhs. hhahs. den after eating went back t cwp and go vista. she wanted to go dong the mickey mouse keychain?? hhahs. but the machine not there lerhs. umms. after tat we bought titbits and went to rc at duno which blk t study. umms. we didn actually study narhs. jus chit chat and slack. couldn get anything into our heads but jus read the notes tat wanshi brought lols. den at abt 7pm we went off to vista to photostep the notes, den we parted with wanshi there. i walked her home and i went off. nth much. i love her alot i guess. but i dunc think its ever too much narhs. i hab my limit worhs xp no lurs i'm jus being normal. i jus love u is tat a good enuff reason??? hhhahs! ur my baobei ta ma de worhs heehs. cant bear to lose you! TA MA DE WO AI NI!! ((: WAN AN MING TIAN JIAN. I MISS YOU!

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