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(Saturday, May 20, 2006-)
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# things has been so hectic.-
havent been blogging past few days. too much to say i gues. things jus kept happening. where should i even start? lols.. its been so confusing and everythings jus so down.. i sure hopes everything was really find. have been thinkin alot lately. the things i've said to you and how would u be feeling still. i dunc think its easy t jus take things lightly. everyday i still feel sad whenever i see you. i'm still guilty concious. i'm not sure whether i've alrdy put things back ni place again. has it been stable eversince the first day or has it been rocking all the whilee?? everything we did together and all the happy times, sad times. has it hlped strengthen this. lols. i jus feel everything tat happens. it makes a big impact and feelings jus become strange all of a sudden. i dunc mean love. i feel like theres a distance alrdy. everytime we quarrel things i feel tat we're strained. are we? i'm worried. scared. lols. i noe she doesnt like me this way. cos we needa trust rite. i trust alot. trust isnt everything. we've got a brain. its meant for thinkin. it runs wild. unless everything in this world was meant t be positive. many things would hab been prevented. listened to songs whole day. it sure creates a mood. whenever i listen to nature's law i think abt everything tats happened. the part where it say i'll live with never knowing if knowings gona change. somethings i've said might hab changed her thinkin about everything. all i can do is to keep assuring. showing. the rest is up t her t believe and t change her thinkin. i dunc wana think anymore lerhs. now everything i jus do it to show u. words do not hlp much for you anymore. i think being devoted has its bad points too if u noe wat i mean. doesnt mean devoted is good. or makes the guy good. problems start coming up later even if things hab moved on. sometimes i wished time could move alil faster?
the story ends like this;
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June 2005