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(Thursday, June 01, 2006-)
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# i miss her so bad!!!!-
its been 12 days since i blogged. school holidays. haish boring to the core. cant go out often t see her. i miss her really bad. results are poor. having home tuition on wednesday and sat. sigh. my holidays in the past used t be so easy. wake up play com, chiong until breakfast lunch dinner. bath. chiong com again until 5am. slp until 4pm chiong again. lols. come t think of it now its a really really big waste of time. how the hell did i tot it was great doing it. now tat i've got even more important things to think about and care about i find stayin at home and playing the computer a big waste of time. totally man.. i rather spend time with her than be stuck at home. stayin at home is making me miss her like crazy. feeling of missing someone really can cry and its really really hard to control. its hard t even not think about her for a sec. now tat i'm home alone. there's nth more t think about except her. it sux.. really. i feel so down. can anyone gimme a cure. den scared talk t her will fan her. haish. someone talk t me lurhs. i'm so bad. keep me company pls. lols.. its really hard t go by each day like this. u see being with someone u really love. u would look forward t seeing him/her everyday right. maybe not even doing anything. or just keeping quiet it would still be a happy day for you. hhahs. well... tats what i think. duno bout u guys. (: i cant wait t see her nxt week. i needa get out!!!! i cant stay at home alone keep playing com.. its so freakin boring!! wished i was still stayin a woodlands. so near t her house jus walk over t say hi is also good. argh why do i hab t move t boonlay.. here sux.. i dunc ever go downstair. my home here ish like a freakin hiding place. i use this home t stay in and do everything in. den i go out. come back again. i nvr go downstairs except t buy food. i nvr get t make any frenes here. cos everyones here are apparently paikias? i dunc mind lurhs. but i come home everyday at 6 plus after sch. reach home 7 plus t 8. where got tyme go downstair. i bath and eat dinner den go slp liao. weekends stay at home watch tv play com. or go out on sat. where got tyme go down again. haish. wherelse woodlands so near t sch reach home still got tyme.. more tyme t see her. dunc hab t everytime need t quickly rush home cos dad will scold. haish. wat a fcuked up life i hab. since i hab tuition tis time i gotta work hard. dad says if i go poly he wouldn give a shiet about my life or death. yeah tat would be better for me. i wana mind for own life and making my own decisions. tired being nagged at. i noe lurhs. results poor of cos hab t take al these shiet from parents right. heck lurhs. study hard and move out. i still miss her so bad. going crazy i cant relax. sigh.. 8 more days den maybe can see her. not even sure if i can go out. i love u so much yan. i'm fighting tis month. its so hard. i'm gona go do my tuition homework now. i dunc wan anything. i jus wana see her nxt week. hope dad lets me i'm gona beg him if he doesnt. lols.. faster 10 pm lurhs. wana hear her voice!!!! i'm mad alrdy...
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June 2005