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(Friday, June 16, 2006-)
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10:51:00 PM
# tired t think.-
all these while my purpose... was u. now i'm losing my purpose.. very soon. i got nth t look forward t anymore. i think too much barhs. i'm watching it slowly fall apart. slow like poison. it kills you slowly.. overtime... well. u could tell me not t think. is it so simple? wat are we talkin abt here. if its something simple den why not jus gib up now. why waste the years from the day u were born. den u wouldn meet me. and wont hear my naggings and take my shiet. i bug u too much lerh barhs. like i want. i cared. this kinda things its beyond my control lerhs. neither can i b happy. would u understand what i'm tryin t tell you? its alrite if u dunc. its not important anymore huh. after this year.. i wonder would there be anymore chances t do those stuffs we said we wanted in future. yeah i'm worried. scared. think too much. now i heckcare. let you be. its better for you. wont be so fan. enjoy urself den. i wonder why i wanted so much t be with you when i duno whether its possible. i can do nth t save anything. ur not doing anything t save anything. u made empty promises. why not we jus keep it this way. i noe i'll regret someday. although u say only wana be with me. do u think i dunc wan? think too much lerhs. ur the first and last thing on my mind. i say so much. you only told me not t think so much. okay i wont. neither would i speak of it. u wont see the other side of me. i'm happy. ur happy. we're happy. why bother huh? like u said ryte. yi hou de shi yi zai shuo. although i hate it whenever u say tat. t me its like you've jus given up all hopes. i was being too hopeful barhs. i dunc realy mind how u scold me and criticise or make fun. i jus smile or make fun of u back. t me its fine. dunc really mind wat ppl say or u say. doesnt affect me much. oh dear. i spoke too much. lol. shouldn be this way eh. i wont think too much lerhs. till the day comes. i can only say good bye with a sad heart. would u be happy? hate me.. hate watever i say. i'm like this i cant change. okays. let you be. i will. (: u wouldn hab t worry abt a thing i say anymore. carry on like how everything used t be barhs. i wont think abt anything. i promise.
the story ends like this;
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June 2005