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(Thursday, July 20, 2006-)
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# cant slp again.-
here i'm worrying. cant get t slp again. sigh.
darlin.. i'm tryin my best is it so hard?
i hope i'm not giving u so much things t think.
i dunc wan lidat norhs everytime u sad cos of me.
the past is gone now everything is a new start.
you and me are a new beginning new chapter.
jus lyke u said t me when you accepted me.
its ur decision i hope u dunc regret. i didn.
i love u narhs. so i wanted u t study. i did too.
can dunc play com and chat so much, jus awhile?
is it so bad.. i'm really worried abt you and us.
wat more can i say. i jus keep repeating rmb t study.
u said u will. or u said hao derhs. lols. but.. sigh.
sad t hear u didn whenever u said u will. i'm sad..
u even promised t study for us norhs. wats affectin.
outside friends? or seeing ppl who alrdy not studyin?
wats important wats not. pls prioritise can marhs.
dunc play com so much pls pls. for once jus listen pls?
i only pls u narhs. its the only one thing i wanted.
nth else is more important than u and us can anot.
i dunc wana see us fall apart jus cos of this things.
i dunc lyke. dunc make empty promises. wat do u wan?
tell me exactly whether wat i'm doing is worth doing.
sometimes i think it does. sometimes i dunc think so.
i feel lyke i need t let u go. maybe things changed.
i feel lyke i'm pullin too tight and i needa loosen up.
u need space too. wat more can i do? jus study will do.
its enuf for me. i hope u will.. i worry all the time.
i cant slp now. so i woke up t blog. tonyte its hard.
its been hard talkin t you. sorrys dunc hlp anymore.
do it and i'll feel better. assure me pls. will you?
we talked over the fone on the train. u said u will nors.
now wat happened. i only get sorry. is tat all? wat more.
if one simple sorry can stop me from worryin.
it could stop all the problems in the world.
sorry is jus not cut out for me. not for you too.
the more we say it. the deeper the wounds in my heart.
the more u say it the sadder i get it leaves a mark.
an impression in my heart. tat ur givin it all up.
when all i wanted was for things t go smooth.
make it up t sec 5 and we could take it slow from there.
i've tot of wantin t be with u i really had.
but ur not givin me a chance t at least make it right.
i'm puttin things back on track, but the same thing happens.
always studys and my past. maybe i over did it.
if u would tell me i'd change and stop all of it.
my heart here is for u t torture and t love.
i felt it was all so right alrdy. but its been days.
u keep sayin u will, but ending up apologising. =/
if i had time i'd tell u how i feel abt everything.
everything and all the things i've said and did.
i hab my intentions. i laid the pathway. pls walk withme.
i hope i'm not alone. ur not on the ryte path.
take mine will you? dunc assure me for nth. it pains.
if all i could do was jus watch u fall.
i'd rather fall first and catch u at the end of ur fall.
hopin tat u'll rise up again. and bring me up too.
because ur the one tat made a difference in me.
changed me and made me. i feel happier. i feel ur love.
i love it. everything abt you. no matter wat u say.
wat happens in the end i'll always be there t hold you.
tightly always till the end. <3
the story ends like this;
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June 2005