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(Thursday, July 13, 2006-)
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# hahaha.-
Today morning duno why i still walked t her blk. lols
I knew she wouldn be going yet i still walk there.
Now i only take that route t sch. i duno any other route.
Lols. i'm used t it alrdy. lost whenever ur not around.
Today whole day i was slpy cos i didn slp well. =x
Its bored in sch too. missed her. one day seems so long.
Nbm. tml morning get t see her again. wana hug her lols.
Shes calling me tonyte too. will be waiting for her call. ((=
Thought abt wats gona happen t us nxt time. need lots of trust.
Dunc worry i'll give you lots of space. i love you baobeii.
Think abt many stuffs larhs. but told her i wont think.
As i promised u i didn think after i left ur block. so boring.
After sch went t buy bbt for her. went her house gib her.
Stood outside her gate and talked t her. chatted till 4.
I left after tat. feeling bored. lonely i guess. hhahs.
Well. its not too long a day least i get t see her. heehs.
I promise i'll study. she promised me too. i hope barhs.
Must study hard norhs dunc slack so much anymore.
Com okay lerhs, dunc stuck there den nvr study okays.
Rmb t study norhs. theres nth much i can do if u dunc..
I'm watchin as the day goes by. got demoralised tday. by kc.
He said my tuition useless also. cos i slp in class. nvr study.
Lols. i will larhs. and i hab norhs. den he say geri also same.
I was lyke nth t say. jus kept sayin she said she'll study.
She promised me. and we'll both study together. haish.
Kc made me think abt the future norhs. if now dunc study.
Nxt time how? we both how? still will be tgt anots.. worried.
Everything i'm doing now is worth it. its for you and me.
Its all good. i'm jus scared. feeling helpless sometimes.
I told u everything lerhs. now its only scared u wont study.
I hope u will norhs. tats the main thing. no prob lerhs.
The rest i've alrdy told u. i believe we've solved em. (=
I so need u. i really duno wat i'll do without u.
Maybe u wont see it. and havent seen me lookin down ovr u.
Feeling lost over u. even cry over you. hurhurs.
U havent seen all those. i nvr show them. i try t hide away.
But u still made me happy and feelin relieved after awhile.
If u jus walked away. what could i really say.
Would my words even matter anyway. would it change how u feel.
I'm the mess u chose. the closet u cannot close.
The devil in you i suppose.. cause ur wounds t never heal..
When its jus me and you. who noes wat we could do.
If we can jus make it through. the toughest part of the day.
We could Stay here tgt and we could conquer the world.
If we could say that forver is more than jus a word... <3
the story ends like this;
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June 2005