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its so boring today. sigh. alone at home.
no one t talk t really sian one nur.
lols. she's not home too. so shuang go out.
she called and we talked for a while.
not really talked narh. listening t her cousin
talking lols. cute voice huh. but sounds
lyke she's pissed off. lmao. chill he's jus
a kid. hahhas. i had breakfast. but not lunch.
now i dunc noe wat t do on the com. games
are all becoming boring. there's a freaking
mosquitoe in my room. wtf. it jus flew t my ear!
ur going down bitch! lols. tml going moe t work.
ging with kc ds sean larris. sians. wake up early.
tonyte must slp early.. i cant ever slp early.
i'm used t slpin late i wont be able t fall aslp.
sian. den how t work without enuf slp. i'll b tired.
sigh. but only for one day i think i can manage. [:
waiting for her t call me when she's home.
sorry i fan you arh. i noe how ur feelin, really.
but i dunc noe wat else t try and cheer you.
so from now i'll keep quiet until that day is over.
i asked myself if she needed me so much.
things always happen at the wrong time and lead me
thinkin tat she doesnt. even when she said she does..
i dunc even noe t accept tat or not.. lately i'm
not feelin really good. i'm jus down. she duno..
she jus thinks i'm thinkin too much. makin a mess.
ytd went marina square. got scolded by her comin back.
u sounded so pekchek and so fan. how am i suppose t
talk t you and tell you stuffs. i wished i could shut up
and not give u all these shiet tat u gotta take.
its sad. cos u made me think so much because of ur
attitude in the past 4 days. you've nvr been lyke tis
before. u said u wouldn explde. lols. ytd you alrdy did.
so wat can i do. jus keep quiet too. make u happy lyke
u asked me. i'm tryin. but first i gotta be happy too
ryte? the one i loved. tis jus isnt you. once i talk
abt ur studies. the first word i'll hear is aiya ni hen
fan leh. lols. yeah u started the topic. i'm jus tellin
you becasue you asked. when i said the bad thing u didn
lyke. when i said u could do it. u didn lyke it either.
yeah u can say i dunc understand you and how u think.
u think i really dunc noe? tat u started too late.
u struggled thru the whole n lvls exams. now ur scared.
worried u couldn make it t sec 5 with all of us.
scared u lose ur friends? scared you lose me?
and parents and stuffs lyke dat? is it lyke tis?
are u regretting. cos dunc be. u noe if u didn studied
hard tis is the outcome it leads you t be worried.
tats where all the problem came front. u noe u hab
no confidence t you say can be promoted. because u noe
u didn did it well enuf t be sure. we write our own
fate. not god. the rest is up t luck now. chill out.
its over. dunc be afraid t accept ur fate. until tat
day tat comes. you're forced t accept it. theres no
other choice. at this point of time. enjoy while u can
and hope tat everything goes smoothly. i noe u darling.
its hard t jus not think abt it. well u can think and
in tat thinkin process. learn t accept it. not everything
tat happen is bad. everything can be earned back with effort.
love you baby. i'll bring u happiness jus hope you'll be
happy with me. <3
the story ends like this;
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June 2005