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(Thursday, October 26, 2006-)
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last nyte slpt early cos it was so boring.
fever is almost gone. left with headaches.
woke up around 10.30am ate breakfast and
back t com. currently playing cs. sians.
she's watching vcd. no one wana talk t me.
hahaha. morning shouted and mum cos she was
darn irritating. maybe i dunc love them as
much anymore. they cant stop talking.
i dunc lyke t rush i hate to. and both are
always rushing me t do tis and dat if not
they'll say things lyke later u wont do alrdy
why not jus do now. wtf. how u noe i wont do?
lmfao. do anything also wan chap. why cant u jus
leave me the hell alone. i'm fan enuff.
wanted t talk t her abt it. but she's busy.
think she'll jus tell me t tell her later.
anyway its small matter so nbm lur. hha.
she hear ler also will sian barh.
i'm such a problem child. damn. why was i even
born. wat do i enjoy in life anymore.
being someone's bf isnt so easy neither.
if one person could be so positive nth t him
is nvr negative den there must be something wrong.
u need t psycho urself t think positive isnt tat
alil bit lyke nuts. when things i put ryte in ur
face and ur experiencing it now. can u run away
and tell urself no its good. lets be positive.
if my heart tells me its fine it wouldn feel hurt.
u said i treat you better? hurhur. i dunc even noe
if i'm las. can't u treat me better then? lols.
maybe ur ryte i should change alrdy. control my
own thinkin. dunc let it run wild and think tat
wateva u do its not wat it seems. ryte? if u were
in my shoes.. wateva u do.. its jus wat it seems..
lyke when i felt lyke u didn care. u said u did
but jus didn show it. u noe not everything.
between u and me also can say one okay. certain
things shouldn be said and shouldn be asked for.
dunc u get it. i'd be thick skinn if i asked.
i'd be selfish t others if i asked. so wat if
i'm stading in a special place in ur heart. so
wat if u gave me the previledge t say anything
or ask anything. i'd still noe wat t ask and
not t alrite. so i chose t keep it t myself..
u werent happy with i didn wana tell you..
tell u lerh u more unhappy. there's so much
cut here and there t wat i wana say. cos cant.
u wont get the whole picture okay. dunc get angry
with me lerh. everything's fine ryte now. [:
ilu*
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June 2005