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wats wrong now anyway. lols. its so weird.
u talk lyke i'm not there for u or no one is.
i closed up so many holes. solved and understood.
now ur leaving me things t think abt.
sayin all kinds of weird stuffs tat only u noe.
yeah. only u. why cant i be lyke tis lols.
wouldn it be better. i can think of everything myself.
why are u even wantin t understand me when u urself
cant even understand urself? not even being urself.
unhappy yet wanting t be strong. tired yet wana go on.
has it not already gone t the limit yet? i can see it.
ur alrdy strugglin now. jus a talk and we'll start
quarreling. alrdy shows its really bothering you.
i'm waiting for tat someday when u'll talk t me.
once more i'll say tis t you. dunc fight it if u noe
it hurts so bad. dunc fight it when thinkin abt it
makes you cry and makes me so weak and down and mess up.
cos u noe tats the limit alrdy. it has brought u down
real hard slammed t the ground. even if u are standin
tall lookin fine t everyone. u noe and i noe. ur no okay.
u told me u'll try t be strong. being strong isnt worth
tryin. no one stands strong alone. no one can. if they
could they're lyin t themselves. cos they've alrdy
shed one tear. tat proves it. if ur gona be this way.
its fine with me. i wont mess with you but wait
patiently for u t say it. lyke u said even if u told me
i'll nvr understand? yeah. i'll nvr and u even told me
wats the point den? hahas. t you i may be childish?
so i dunc understand isit? u dunc noe anything dardar.
if tats my perception in u i got nth t say alrdy.
all i noe theres a time for me t be serious i'll be.
if i hab t understand you i'd go the extra mile.
ur alrdy blkin me out now how am i suppose t reach out t u.
how am i going t tell u tat i'd understand if only u told me?
i'd really wana noe. i'm ur stead. make full use of me.
i'm not jus a company. i'm more than everything u can think of.
i can do anything for u. i'll always be hear for u no matter wat.
i noe i've hurt u along the way. and there'll nvr be a full month
tat we wont quarrel. i'll try t prevent tat. we've still got
a long way t go. i hope now its not a time you'd think of stoppin
dunc get sick of quarrelin dunc get sick of me thinkin alot.
i'll tell you wat i'm thinkin. cos we're jus startin out
lyke u said. many things even though we said it we wont be able
t prevent it from happening. i'd compromise. i'd give in.
i'd love. i'd care for you. i wont stop all these. hope u wont.
for some reason u may hate my attitude sometimes.
but i hope u'd noe me well enuff tat i didn did things
intentionally jus t get back at you or hurt you. i'd make it up
i can make a million promises or endless ones. i wont break them.
i told u 10 years down the road wats our outcome? i hope we last
lyke i wanted. and u wanted too ryte? u said it t me. i'll rmb.
u cant tell me not t worry. no matter wat my responsiblities are
there. i'd still worry in some way. tats jus normal okay.
so pls do understand too. tat i'm not wantin t quarrel yar.
Always, mk<3yyan
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