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woke up 9plus. dad and grandma didn went t work.
grandma was sick. dad was sick* lols. sian lar.
dunc noe why angered her. but i'm sorry okay.
hope you ace ur amath and god bless* pls dunc mental blk.
stuck home. played come whole day. tired too.
but nth else t do.. i miss her. i need her.
gona see her tml. hope she msg me soon.
sorry laopo. but dunc go anywhere alone pls.
i'd be worried. kaes. enuff of tat. havent eaten yet..
not hungry anyway jus headache and giddy. eyes aching.
neck pain. woke up on the wrong side of the bed. lols.
tml going with her t swimming. think i'll sit there.
i cant swim if i'm in the water i'd only get in ur way.
rmb-ed u said t me swimming also duno buay paiseh. lols.
today not coming down lerh. i really wanted t.
its too late now. seems lyke i've got lots t say t you.
hmm. tis year maybe no chalet lerh. no more beach hhahs.
chalet... sigh.. some things i tried t forget. useless..
couldn slp much lately. 1 more day and ur exams are over.
i hope u made it. when my hopes turned t fear. it turns
t anger and frustration. i lost trust and i got insecure.
but i've always told myself t take it slowly. maybe tats
jus afew simple steps i should make and downfalls i must
sacrifice t get something i really wanted out of it?
well. still working towards it. lols. guys are immature eh.
2 years immature. hahahs. means i hab a 14yo mind? lol.
ahb u ever hidden stuffs away from me? ryte.. theres no forever.
nth last forever. we do all die. only faster or slower.
lyke u wouldn believe in fairytales. i tell u now i'll always
love u. t you its naive. it'll nvr be true. i'll change.
or in msges. you'd jus type a smiling face. i noe.
u dunc wana hope for anything. jus let nature take its course.
i called ur cell. its off. ur still in exam hall ba.
study hard for one more day. no more stress and fan nao.
we can play com tgt hhahs. [: i injured both my wrist..
my backbone is aching from the injury again.
i'm so broken up. some injuries here and there lols.
how does it feel lyke t be heartbroken. think i've felt it.
is it lyke ur hearts heavy? and a tinkling feelin keeps
circling inside? when ur body jus felt cold and numb?
i hope i get myself ryte. and not always tellin her i'm sad.
wana let her noe i'm happy. i've much t say.. but i prefer
t let it eat me up. my wounds will heal fast.. i'm tiejingang.
hhahs. rmb tat? <3
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June 2005