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i didn slpt much last nyte. was still msgin her
during 5am. noeing she's aslp but jus wanted t
msg her anyway. rmb she said in the middle of
the nyte even if u knew i'm aslp i'd be happy
if u got things wana msg me so morning i could
read them. i noe u cared. i jus didn get things
straight before i approached u and said all those
stuff den somehow forced u t go right at the edge
of the cliff. made me one die lerh. even though
with danny and ds still laughing and talkin i jus
couldn let the thought of u slip my mind for a sec.
i kept thinkin how, why i said, how t resolve will
be go back nicely and happily again? i held on tight
t my phone last nyte.. even downstairs when i'm lyin
on the road taking a picture and thought it was fun.
i couldn stop thinkin of u. until they said a car was
coming den i quickly ran back. i ate two cup noodles.
drank peach tea as we bought 1.5litre t share den walk
around my neighbourhood. i did things dat mde me wana
stay awake all nyte. until they all started fallin aslp
at 5am. after awhile my eyes felt heavy and i slpt..
after 2 hours my stomach started t ache from eatin too
much. i didn cared t go t the toilet. jus wana lie on
my bed and think think think.. we're seperated.. well wat
does tat signify? i noe its not a breakup. u jus wan me
t leave u alone. i wouldn dare think of anything but jus
hopin for the best? lols.. i've changed u in someway..
made u cried badly again. in what way am i good t you.
cos whenever we start quarrellin its always me who blew
things up. i'm not gona die tryin, so i'll try again..
laopo... if u cant take it anymore.. tell me.. i'll go..
but no matter wat the love we had was real and happy
moments still linger in my mind. reading my tag board
i knew wats happy and wats not..those post u tagged and my
replies.. its lyke last nyte i became a totally different
person. i'm sorry.. really really sorry.. i noe tis time.
u wont let me close t you lerh. or let me mend anything.
sayin things tats too weird t even believe ryte? i've gt
t tell u tis.. ytd u pushed me t the edge was because of
the things u said and asked me back. they were all puzzlin.
not ur actions.. did i jus missed u real bad cos i didn
get t spend a cuple of hours with you? and ended up being
sad and thinkin tat i needed u for another reason? i dunc noe.
cos when u asked me tell me now why do u need me so much?
i didn noe how t answer. yeah why.. maybe i dunc and made
myself think i did.. i think too much lerh.. tat always made
us quarrel lyke mad. or leave u no able t slp and cryin..
i'd learn t chage tis habit and not think wats not right.
get things straight and feelings straight before i start talkin
t you. i dunc wan us t break apart.. alrite. i wished u could
gimme one last try. t love u the way i've always said t you.
lyke i said every decision lies in you for our relationship.
cos i think ur the girl. its my duty t treat u ryte if i love u.
so. i didn did i? yeahs.. i dunc noe why not u tell me. [:
i still love u alot. nths changed my love for u. hope u still
have fun lyke everyday on com and outside. i miss u dearly.
i love you baby. always.
the story ends like this;
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June 2005