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went chalet on the 29 oct. jus came back home today. met geri at cwp. walked around and bought 10 cheese balls. ha. damn nice. lol i addicted alrdy. [: after tat walked around and she bought a concealer from face shop. after tat we left for tampines. took 168 there. bought bbt and we both first time ate tempura. ha. not bad quite nice. i lyke t chew it. shiok arhs. lol. after tat we had a tiff. its over now. anyways i've found out certain stuffs too. ha. guess i should've known when t back away. sigh.. sorry i shouted at u. u said i changed haha. well.. if u had jus listened t me. but i saw in the tag. u said if come msg you. maybe tats why u didn stayed up there? ha. met up with ds gao chao sheng qiang and we took bus 3 t downtown east. i was really angry las. t you it isnt anything much. reach lerh collect key and went t the place. f08. she go in only chiong up and put bag. later me ds and her went t walk around the beach... they said they were hungry so we went cheers and bought cup noodle later walked around and bought milkshakes i think. forgot which came first... went back f08 and cooked noodle. i wasnt in a mood t eat. but she asked me t eat anw. i ate some she ate most of the two cups add tgt. lols. i wasnt in a mood really.. wished i could tell u exactly how i feel. would u laugh in my face? haha. lmao. sians. after eating played poker cards. same 3 of us... later on euson, maris, gb and gang came.. we continued t play until night falls. she lost the necklace i bought for her. sigh. wished i could get her a new one but it wouldn hab tat same feeling when she wears it. haha. hai.. and i couldn find it.. during night. gp and danny came. we were worried tat they were stil not talking t each other. lol. but got faked by them haha. wth. bathed and we all went upstairs play cards. gp gotta work the nxt day so danny and her didn stayed. later on viki ph kc came. they all played mahjong. after danny and gp left. me and her decided t slp as she was tired. but we jus stayed in the room until 4 plus am den slp. cos the room got gb and qing bing they all kept talking and making fun of others. we all laughed and talked. kinda fun. geri said she was vulgar lols. cos she hang out with us too much lol. woke up on the second day at 7.45am. she bluff say it was 8 and wan faster go brush teeth and wash hair. den eat breakfast. me her and ds went t eat at one small store. stuffs there darn ex. i paid 4 bucks for bandung 2 eggs and bread tat was size of 3 fingers. zzzzz. waste my fcuking money. me and her shared money thru the whole chalet. both of us tgt spent all our money abt 115$. lol. didn noe where it all went. later on siew lin camea. and we played cards for awhile again. later on we all went escape and play the rides. i so long nvr get any thrill in my life haha. found tat it wasnt really tat scary. sprained both my wrist due t the force. pain lyke hell. me and her went tampines t buy tempura as she wanted t eat it again. and kept talkin abt it since the first day. so me and her went and i was so fcukin slpy. i slpt on the bus lol. until reach tampines i was lyke gona die. go anywhere also must sit down and slp. haha. den met up with sean at mrt station and we took bus 3 back t chalet. me and her went upstairs t slp. we wer so tired las. slpt awhile jiu at time for bbq lerh. i was starving but i ate a lil only. duno why lol. i guess we kept running around tats why. sl and sean rented a two seater bike and i first time ride so me and ds test first. it wasnt so hard. i got on only den everything was smooth. i tompang her t beach and looked for kc and ah boi. geri took pic of them sitting side by side at the rock. lols. went t return bike and den went for bbq. me and sheng qiang were cooking the stuffs. geri was marinating the chicken wings. siew lin was darn idiot arh. she played with the chicken wing lol. press press and massage it. lmao.. after eat abit gao chao went t buy half a carton of tiger beer and i bought 2 bottles of e33. sian. i drank one can. den i drank on bottle. wasnt tipsy. jus high. wanted t drink another bottle of e33. wasnt really happy las. but she and siew lin lyke also got prob and she cried. so i didn wan let her worry for me too. den didn drink.. sians. let kc drink. me her sl ds danny went t the beach and sat on a rock. took pics. went back t chalet and sl must reach home by 10. kc sent her t take cab. kc didn seemed in the mood. he was thinkin abt stuff. even disturb him also he didn react. first time see him lidat. ha. later on we went see sean izzul and hafiz they all play pool. wanted t play also but closed lerh. den we played arcade daytona. i suck now. too long no play. forget all the timing liao. haha. bored.. later on went back den me and her jiu go slp lerh. she was really tired. and i couldn slp. thought and last year. and this year. she said i couldn make her feel cosy and i become very gao wei. haha.. sians. how t eat big size lols.. hear liao i also heart pain.. i thought abt stuff, seemed lyke she was jus too slpy t bother. ha. but nbm la. today woke up duno wat time. bathed and went back t slp again. after tat jiu go home liao. i felt the urge t smoke again. i felt lyke shiet. i didn noe wat t do. haha. i couldn handle tis sick feelin in my heart and the pain tat is jus eating my insides. those words i cant seem t say t you. made even more lyke dying. sigh....... i wished i was in control.. wheres my confidence. i'm not what i'm anymore. i dunc noe wat i'm now either. certain stuff i do.. i jus wasnt in the mood anymore. its lyke for the sake of u den i do. inside. i feel so cold blooded. i wished u knew tis and wana assure me. i treat u lyke an animal. maybe i'm one.? i wana be happy, myself, normal... i cant do tis alone.. will you be here for me? so much things i wished u knew... why do u always tell me t talk t you nxt time.. nxt time i would've changed worst alrdy.. i wasted so much chance.. yet another year gone and another thing i regret i didn do... sigh.. =(
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June 2005