(Thursday, May 24, 2007-)
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sigh. shes scared i could tell. maybe shes doing her stuff.
but the thing still runs in her thoughts. what have i done.
i'll stand by her. i miss her so much. tml can see her lerh.
maybe she'll be happy to see me too? maybe not? hais.
i jus played a game of dota. i'm getting ready to slp.
would she call me at 10pm like she used to? i wonder..
shes speechless. too worried too scared. but i noe.
after we noe the answer the nxt step it'll be easy for us
to handle. i hope so god pls hear my plea. dat nth
of that sort would place on us. its too big for us to cope.
in my heart i wan jus let her rest. calm down her heart
and her soul. dun let her mind run wild. that would be
ok for now. this whole month is jus madness for us.
its me who needs some changing. i guess she had always
listened to me. its jus me who hasnt been treating her right.
didnt went sch today. had gastric and fever. now i'm feverish.
hope tml will recover so can accompany her to shopping. (:
i'd be happy if i could jus be there wherever you may go.
if u let me. if u asked me to. maybe show signs. tell me something.
baby. if theres ever anything i wanted on earth right now.
its a confirmation and an assurance for us. so we can put
this relationship aside and dun worry at all that either would
leave each other. as time passes by. i found out somethings
tat i had nvr seen when being with u. i didn noe. u needed me.
i didn noe u didn wan me to be lonely. although i'm used to
being lonely. jus that now there's someone there for me to miss.
love. both good and bad. too much bad lately. so sorry.. i'll try
my best. to watch the way i speak to parents and to you.
you've been asking me to talk to them nicely all the time on the phne.
yeah i did today. i didn shout. i didn pissed off. when dad talked.
i felt fine. i'm trying hard to change. yes. for you. i hope this time
i can succeed. slp early darling. i love you. good night.
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