(Sunday, August 12, 2007-)
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hello! im mingkit. haha.
talking to geri on the phone now.
geri's having her prelim tmr.
and she haven studied. lol.
blog again. (:
-geri here. lmao.
talking to geri on the phone now.
geri's having her prelim tmr.
and she haven studied. lol.
blog again. (:
-geri here. lmao.
the story ends like this;
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(Thursday, August 09, 2007-)
+5:53:00 AM]*
+5:53:00 AM]*
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many things happened. gona save the details. jus she know and i know thats enough? alright so everyone has lost faith and doesnt trust me. lost a couple of friends. making her change her lifestyle. hopefully. someday. just forget me. everyone is also saying just forget me. isnt it? if i could explain things properly maybe you wouldn be so bad then. got back the ring. she still misses me. though i miss her. but everything seems lesser now. ton out today with friends. danny long jie mervyn boon han. feels great to enjoy. the whole night i kept thinnkking abt stuffs that happened. apart of me says dun drag. cos giving her false hope isnt gonna get things anywhere. but i dun want to be harsh either. apart of me still wants to stand by her and stay with her. i duno what i want. what should i answer yyou darling? keeping quiet isnt an option yes i know that. but its hard to even think of something that will not hurt you. i know my silence is killing you slowly as we go on. just like you said. i know everything to get things back. i know what ur thinking. i know what you want. what happened in the lift jus now when i sent you home. its been a long time since we kissed. everyone sees me as an asshole now. i cant bother abt what they think. tired alrdy. i still feel its the worst and cheapo reason to break up. its the lamest i guess. sorry i couldn find the words to say. sorry i couldn explain myself. i wished i could do something to make you feel not so bad. but i think its not what my brain wants me to do. although my heart aches still when i hear you msg chim and stuffs like you seen him and i still get so worried for you when u go out alone and wonder alone in the middle of the night. but i told myself. thats jus the way it should be after we broken up. i knew you were trying to create chances to let me have a chance to patch with you and not keep quiet cos it didnt solved anything. you got lots to tell me but now seems like theres many things you will hide from me alrdy. besties we'll be. i hope to take a step back this time. today. i drank two bottle of jim beam cola. didn got drunk. no kick at all. maybe too much gas. cos theres coke. i did smoke. so sorry everyone. to stella if u see this yeah maybe you'll hate me. to kc and ds. to geri. i love you. my memories of us and u will always remain in my heart. i'm not the guy thats gona commit. those who thought i was one in the past. a guy who can hardly be found. the kind who can be devoted. i did asked myself. am i? lol.. get used to the me right now. if u cant dun let me be a heartache to everyone of u that has ever cared for me. oh whats the point of saying this. u'll just heck care me or even wan wack me up bah. when i'm at a point out of reach from you guys maybe u guys should leave me alone alrdy. i duno what i'm doing anymore. out of the blue. things jus happened. i'm not sure now. if i said. i could have prevented all this. because. i really dunnno. if all this can really be prevented. it happened in a matter of days. 3days? 4? a week? sigh. i cant turn back the time. those who want to hate me hate me. those who jus wana spread some stuff abt me behind my back i couldn careless anymore. things came with a consequence. i'll face it. cos i did it alrdy. its too late. to gain back everyones trust. thats how i feel. i'm avoiding. i'm hiding. becoming like a stupid idiot now. lost my sense of direction? my hearts so cold. i cant even feel who i'm anymore. (: when was that moment i'm truely happy? when was it that i was so sad? i only could rmb.... when was it that i was jealous. when was it that i was filled with hatred. it all ended when i broke my fingers.. i knew i cant continue anymore. its not ur fault. dun ever blame urself. everyone can put the blame on me. please thank you. its all numb.. maybe when i died. i will be able to ffeel.. the true happiness. at this point.. i dun treasure my life anymore.
the story ends like this;
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